CNY =)

Oh its Chinese New Yr again... Time flies... I am older by one yr again... I will be goin for a short trip tomolo. As usual goin to Malaysia. I guess i will miss KT for these few days. Dunno if he will miss me a nt? Brought him to meet my parents recently. Think they accepted him. So glad. On 25th Jan my family n KT went dinner. When we came bk, while walking fr carpark to my hse me n KT r holding hands. Guess wat. We saw my ex husband. HE called me. N he saw KT. He told me he wanna to wait till 5yrs when our flat mature den he will sign the divorce papers. Do i have a choice.. I guess nt lor... So the onli thing i can do nw is to wait. Hopefully the time can come faster so tat i can get bk my freedom. Happy Chinese New to everyone.... Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!!!!!!!

Sick again =(

I think something is veri wrong with my health.... i am sick again.... today took a cab to work n after alighting, i vomited like hell.... till nw i am still vomiting... scared of eating food nw... cos watever goes in will come out immed.... y am i always sick.... i dun understand... i tried veri hard to take gd care of myself but things jux went wrong.... how can i bring my health back... pls tell me... i hate getting sick...n i hate letting my dear worry abt me. Two nites ago i cal KT in the middle of midnite... i think i mux have scare him to death... i tot i was dying so i called him... cos i am afraid tat if something happen to me he will be the last one to noe.. n tats nt wat i wan... i wan him to be thr 1st wan to noe everything abt me... but luckily i didnt die... really hope i can get better.... n stay healthy... god pls bless me!!!!!

Finally I can start savings again

KT n i decided to start a join acc. After 1 yr of spending, finally i can start savings again. We r planning to get our own transport by Jun. Hopefully everything can go smoothly. At the same time we r planning to go taiwan for holiday. cant believe god is treating me so gd. after giving me so many yrds of shit finally he gave me peace. KT had always wanna to start his family early but with me he cant. He got to wait for me to settle my papers. I will work really hard to settle it. At the same time both of us loves kids but there might be a possibility tat i cant have any kids in future. i noe when i told him tis he will be veri disappointed. i myself is oso veri disappointed. so rite nw i mux have less stress so tat my health can get better. i hope i wont disappoint KT n i hope he dun let me down too. As u noe when u fall so many times u will oso be veri scared wan. so i hope i wont fall again. God pls be fair to me tis time. all i need is so simple. someone who love n care for me. i have found him nw so pls dun take him away fr me. i dun wan to fall again. cos i am so tired.....

Tired Day =(

Dunno y today is super tired for me.... Sales was bad today... I think i pressured myself too much liao... had a bad headache today... suddenly feel so hungry... how i wish i can have a bowl of hot soup to drink nw. hope tomolo will be a better day for me...

News breaking day

Went for ot today. suppose to work 8.5hrs ot but cos i cant wake up so i changed it to 4.15hrs instead. after tat i went to my mum's shop. when i pass by thiong bahru market, i wanna to visit vin's mum. but in the end i changed my mind. cos i oso dunno when i see them how shld i react. so better dun go. so i wnet st to my mum's place. 15th jan i will b bringing my family for a dinner. tat day i intend to intro KT to my parents. so today i ask her if she confirm wanna to go dinner on tat day. she said yes. at the same time i broke the news bringing KT to meet her. surprised, she even joked saying tat if gd wan den bring nt gd wan pls dun bring. den on the car she asked me abt KT. I told her i had known KT since the day i joined sh. n i told her he is working st sh too. i even break the news tat he is one yr younger den me. n she said age is nt a problem. she said i am so terrible. there i am jux broke of with oe guy n here i am with another guy. i replied her tat if i am nt like tat i am nt her daughter liao...... she shake her heads n smile... i felt like a big stone off my chest nw. at least next time i can tell them i am goin out with KT n nt using excuse like work or watever shit..... so happy nw.... hope tat KT can oos be as happy as me.

First Day Of Yr 2006

Today is the 1st day of yr 2006. Times files..... Hmmmm.... So how did i spend my last day of yr 2005. I was wif KT. I was at his hse watching him played mahjong. Its was nt as bored as wat i tot. I rem I ever watched Vin playing n it was damn bored. But KT spend most of his time focusing on me rather den the tiles. He gave me a lot of attention n make sure i wasn't bored watching him. Really appreicated wat he had done for me. We are planning to go on a holiday trip tis comin Feb. hope everything can go smoothly..... Being with KT is like a different life for me. Anyway i can't use words to describle this feelings. Hopefully i am on the rite track tis time round. A few weeks later i am goin to intro him to my parents.... dunno how will my parents react... if they knew tat he is 1 yr younger den me can they take it a nt.... i think they shld be able to. hope tat all my friends n my parents can give me their blessing.... Both me n KT noe tat the route will be difficult for both of us.... but we promise to hold our hands tightly n walk it thru together...... Some words for KT..... Dear i am really sorie... i noe bcos of me u lose a lot of friends. Pple might think tat we r wrong. But both of us noe wat we r doin. I do hope we can have trust with ourself. Since the day i chose to stay with u i didnt expect u to do anything for me. never did i expect u to leave her. i onli noe no matter wat happen i will always be by ur side. I love u.....