Finally Is Fri!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wow its fri again......... so shiok.............. tomolo dun have to work. finally i cant dun work on sat.. today vin stay at hm for work. he can fetch me juz nw. so nice of him. we din manage to have time for dinner. cos he need to rush to temple. after he drop me, he went temple. i miss him nw. n i wonder if he oso miss me. wonder wat he is doin nw. he bought some dvd n wanna me to go over to his place to watch tomolo. but i got a big problem. i got to go for tuition tomolo. n i cant think of an excuse to go out. i have been thinking for the whole wk. but i juz cant think of anything. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!! i noe vin will be veri disappointed cos i cant meet him. but i dun have a choice. i really cant think of anything nw. my brain is totally occupied with my new training stuffs. training is tough. i cnt imagine i need to do two things at one time. i started to give up. i even plan to look for a new job soon. but vin told me tat its nt like my usual character. i will still put in my best effort but lack of a bit of confidence nw. hopefully confidence wil pick up next wk. dar so sorie. i will still continue to think of excuse but i cant promise u anything nw. hopefully i cant think of something tomolo. so wish me gd luck.........................

NEW JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

3 days had pass since i started my new job. on mon i went training. This job training will end around 1st week of mar. On the first day, i was late due to a traffic jam. luckily i am nt the onli person late. there were some pple even came in later den me. My HR Yan was veri nice. She didnt even blamed me for being late. Its like so different fr the bank. Cos in the bank whenever i am goin to b late, i will get veri panic. I met new friends there. Most of them r guys. Compare to the bank its different again. In the bank, almost 90% of my colleagues r gals. I got to noe them the first day. n we even went lunch together everday. There is this little gal who is a temp staff waiting for her A level results. She is a nice n cute gal. Really behaves like a little gal. On of the training guy, Eric will be working together with me in the sales dept. he had been working in there for abt 1 mth plus. he told me a lot of things abt my new work place. n he even remind me tat it will be veri cold there so i muz remember to bring along my jacket when i go there after the training. Such a nice guy right. We even dream of being the top sales person there. So we had decided to work ot often even on sun. Its fun to have pple who motivates u at work. One guy who use to be in the air force for 7 yrs join our company. he is a vei handsome guy. N i cant take my eyes away fr him. Noe wat every morning he is my motivation for goin to work. Hee hee. I juz told vin, n he was real mad. But i find it nothing wrong wat. Anyway back in the actual work place i wont b anle to c him cos we r working in different dept. n i guess vin muz had felt veri relieve abt it. Went out for dinner with vin. dun noe y recently we had a lot of arguements. I dun noe wats the reason behind it. was i too demanding or is he too stress over work. cos he told me tat he had some projects crop up recently. last time he dun raise his voice at me but nw he oftens does tat. i cant stand it anymore so juz nw i raise up the problem to him. we went outram for dinner den holland v for dessert. while taking the dessert i told him how i felt. i ask him if i had done anything wrong. he apologised to me, n ask me if he is veri bad tempered. after all we still made up. I guess i am oso in the wrong as i shld nt had say things to hurt him. Anyway things r fine nw. hope his work can clear smoothly. Dar i am sorie. I love u........

Granny in the hospital again.

Went to c granny yesterday. she couldnt even recongise who i am. tears almost drop fr my eyes. y do she have to suffer like tat. i can sense tat she had got a lot to say but she cant say it out. her eyes told me tat she is veri tired. when i cee her like tat i felt so sad. i wanna to help her lessen her pain but i dun noe wat i shld do. i am so lost nw..............................................

No Stress At All

Its Fri today. Finally I left the bank on 16/02/05 (WED). I cried when i had to said farewell to my friends working in the bank. All of them wishes me all the best n i am so touched. One of my friend even bought a small little gift for me. all of them shared n bought me a bottle of perfume n a pair of watch. i love it so much. Esp the perfume, it smells so nice. N i cant bear to use it. Everyone gave me a last hug after we kept our tills. Nsb told nt nt to cry as i shld b happy leaving the hell working environment. She is right. For the past 2 days, i didnt have any stress at all. I felt so relax. But i think on Mon the stress will come back again cos i am starting my new job. Today something happened. My ex sms me saying tat the uob bank cal him up for the ccc payment. I cal him n told him tat i had already send a chq to them. But later when i check my account, the chq was nt persented, i guess it muz had been lost during mailing. So i cal him again to tell him i will go down to the bank to make a payment. Den we had a chat. He asked me how am i getting on. I told him abt the reno loan. As i resign fr the bank, they wanna me to make the full payment. but he is nt keen in helping the payment. I cant blame him cos after all, my dad is the wan who borrow the money fr him n tats y i need to take up the loan. I told him in tat case i will pay it myself. cos my mum is lending me the money for the payment. someone told me tat he had a gf. So i asked him have he found a new gal. He told me no. I am so confused. i dun noe if he is lying. if he is lying i cant think of a reason y muz he do tat. he told me tat he got hurt so deeply tat he dun wan to get someone new. cos he dun wan to get hurt again. at tat moment, i felt so guilty. but he told he had already past the worst stage. he has pick himself up nw. i can sense tat he still care a lot for me. he even remind me nt to skip meals. he oso ask me if i had regretted. i told him no. i told him i am veri happy with my life nw. i told him tat he is a nice guy but juz tat i am nt suitable for him. I really sincerely wished tat he can find someone really suit him. After tat vin called up. i told vin tat he is unwilling to help in paying the reno loan, vin was so angry. he scolded me for taking up all the responsibility. Vin dun understand. i was so hurt when he scolded me. i tot he will understand y i didnt wan to force him to pay. i didnt wan to force him cos i dun wan to owe him anything. although i had a heavy burden i dun mind. i dun wan to have anything to do with him so tat i can start a new life together with vin. but he juz can understand. i am so sad abt it. i hope one fine day vin will understand y i am doin this.

Sick For the Whole Week

Last fri i was on mc. Havin fever. For the past one wk the bank has extended banking hours n i am working ot for the past wk. veri tired n my sickness has nt recover yet. Finally i present my ersignation letter on the 17 jan. My last day with the shit bank will be on 16 fed. i felt so sad tat i had to leave my gd friends. after all i had been working in the bank for 2 yrs. all my friends there are always so nice n gd to miss. i really cant bear to leave them. Today i on mc again. the shit bank wanna to send me to toa payoh to work. i dun wan to go. n i ask the stupid csm why mux i go. she pick me without even asking me if i willing to go a nt. she is the boss so she say u mux go means mux go. so stupid. so i planned with monster n janet tat if the die die oso wan me to go i will take mc. Juz got a cal fr eric. dun noe if i did the right thing to take mc a nt. they send winnie there for work. here we r shortage of man power n yet they r still pulling our pple to help others. wat kind of csm we had. really take veri "gd " care of our gals........ so stupid...... i so angry..... anyway i am leaving so i dun care. i am juz afraid of draging my friend into trouble. Wat kind of work place am i in? so shit so stupid. csm dun stand in our position to think for us.......... really fuck.....................