No Stress At All

Its Fri today. Finally I left the bank on 16/02/05 (WED). I cried when i had to said farewell to my friends working in the bank. All of them wishes me all the best n i am so touched. One of my friend even bought a small little gift for me. all of them shared n bought me a bottle of perfume n a pair of watch. i love it so much. Esp the perfume, it smells so nice. N i cant bear to use it. Everyone gave me a last hug after we kept our tills. Nsb told nt nt to cry as i shld b happy leaving the hell working environment. She is right. For the past 2 days, i didnt have any stress at all. I felt so relax. But i think on Mon the stress will come back again cos i am starting my new job. Today something happened. My ex sms me saying tat the uob bank cal him up for the ccc payment. I cal him n told him tat i had already send a chq to them. But later when i check my account, the chq was nt persented, i guess it muz had been lost during mailing. So i cal him again to tell him i will go down to the bank to make a payment. Den we had a chat. He asked me how am i getting on. I told him abt the reno loan. As i resign fr the bank, they wanna me to make the full payment. but he is nt keen in helping the payment. I cant blame him cos after all, my dad is the wan who borrow the money fr him n tats y i need to take up the loan. I told him in tat case i will pay it myself. cos my mum is lending me the money for the payment. someone told me tat he had a gf. So i asked him have he found a new gal. He told me no. I am so confused. i dun noe if he is lying. if he is lying i cant think of a reason y muz he do tat. he told me tat he got hurt so deeply tat he dun wan to get someone new. cos he dun wan to get hurt again. at tat moment, i felt so guilty. but he told he had already past the worst stage. he has pick himself up nw. i can sense tat he still care a lot for me. he even remind me nt to skip meals. he oso ask me if i had regretted. i told him no. i told him i am veri happy with my life nw. i told him tat he is a nice guy but juz tat i am nt suitable for him. I really sincerely wished tat he can find someone really suit him. After tat vin called up. i told vin tat he is unwilling to help in paying the reno loan, vin was so angry. he scolded me for taking up all the responsibility. Vin dun understand. i was so hurt when he scolded me. i tot he will understand y i didnt wan to force him to pay. i didnt wan to force him cos i dun wan to owe him anything. although i had a heavy burden i dun mind. i dun wan to have anything to do with him so tat i can start a new life together with vin. but he juz can understand. i am so sad abt it. i hope one fine day vin will understand y i am doin this.