Bored Friday/////////

Its fri again. As usual Vin went to temple to help out. He is nt feeling well n i am so worried abt him. Trying to get him to go back hm early but i noe he cant. Unless boss allow him to leave early. But i juz cant set my mind at ease. Yesterday was our 3 month anniversary. In the morning, when i cal him to wake him up, he didnt even wish me happy anniversary. I was so angry and at nite he had to go temple to burn incense cos old man need him. I was terrible upset cos we had never spend our anniversary together once. he told me he send a mail to me n wanna me to go take a look. It was an e card. Although it was veri cute but i juz cant get my anger off tat moment when i thought of him goin to emple instead of spending our anniversay together. I noe i made him upset again yesterday. After all wat he did was for the both of us. He treasure me so much tat he cant lose me. Tats y he is willing to do anything for me. Today on the bus when i was on my way hm i throw my temper on him again. I wanna to give in to my sis n he was so angry with me. saying tat i wont listen to watever he say. I was so upset hearing this. He cant understand. I have onli one sis n i wanna to give her watever i can. Even she dun treat me gd i still wanna o give her my best. Cos granny say she is my only kin in the world. My wants me to dote her. I promise granny i will so i have to give my best to her. But Vin is angry with me over tat which made me so heart broken. he cant understand y i am doin this. N i oso dun noe how to explain to him. I noe he dote me dun wan pple to bully me. but sometimes certain things are really beyond our control. I juz need him to understand i am doin this bcos of my granny. bcos of a promise i made to my granny. Granny loves me so much so i cant disappoint her. if she noes i dun give in to my sis n quarreling with her over small little things she would be veri upset. Granny muz be veri angry with me nw bcos i created so much trouble. She muz be veri upset n heart broken so i cant let her get upset anymore. My wish nw is to faster get out of this stupid mess. Cos i realise sometimes i will miss my ex hubby. maybe its bcos we have been togather for so many yrs. tats y still need some time to get over it. Esp when vin is busy n had no time for me. I would think of a lot of things. i would start wondering if i never chooe to divorce will i be happily preparing for my wedding. N how is it like to get married. N how is it like wearing ur fav grown on tat day. how is it like when all ur friends n realatives come to give u the wishes. How is it like having a small little family of ur own. How is it like being a mother. How is it like being other pple wife. getting married is always my wish. cos i cant have a hm of my own n no more restriction for my parents. get myself free fr them. i got all these but in the end i choose to destroy it. I choose to give up wat i had achieve. I have been asking myself am i doin the right thing? Am i goin the right way. Tell me i am........... cos i cant afford to make mistake again.