I was too bad n unreasonable.......

I couldn't help feeling disappointed today. So didnt wan to talk n=much to Vin today. I guess he muz be veri sad. I was giving him cold shoulder this morning. Which really make him freak out. I knew that it was not his fault but i still purposely treated him like tat. I was really too unreasonable. He wanted to meet me for makan in the afternoon. Bcos i was too disappointed so i rejected him. but ib the morning today, I miss him a lot so i agreed to meet him n told a white lie to my mum saying tat i goin movie with my friends. But the moment i thought of he had to go temple, i juz cant help feeling disappointed. So when i saw him in the noon, i didnt even gave him a smile. He ask me wat i wanna to eat but i told him i dun wan to eat anything. Den i tole him i wanna to go hm. I snatch my things away fr him n walk off. He chased after me n we managed to patch things up. I noe i should be angry with him cos its nt his fault. after all everything he does is for the seek of both of us. He had already made his best effort to find time for me n i shld appreciate it. But i was juz too nasty juz nw. Dar i am SORRY. We parted off at around 6pm. i reached hm at around 7plus. My buddy sms me. Glad tat he still remember me as his buddy. thought tat he forgotten abt me. He is still so caring towards me. He told me he will be back in singapore on the 16th. N ask me how i am doin. N have i settle my problems. I told him tat i will be filing for divorce next yr, n i am leading a happy life nw. He said when he told his gf abt my problem, she was jealous. She said that i am still waiting for him. I think the gal muz be mad. Any way i didnt told my buddy tat i had Vin nw. Cos i dun think its the right time to tell him yet. I assured my buddy tat we shall prove his gf worng. There are also pure friendship btw a boy n a girl. He said dun care abt her n told me he's tired n needed t take a break. He ask me wanna to go holiday with him. When i told Vin abt this, at first he was okie. But later when he knew that i didnt told my buddy that I am with him nw, he ws veri unhappy. I noe he care tats y he is nt haooy abt it. Any way if my buddy were to ask me go holiday together with him i will definitely go. Its really nt easy for me to treat him as a pure friend. But i did it. He 's nw juz a friend to me. A friend whom i noe when i need him he will be there for me. N i have never regreted having him as my buddy. I beileve if he noe that i had found such a great guy he will b veri happy for me. N he will give me all his support. Dar juz wanna to let u noe u will be the last man in my life.No more man can enter into my life. cos tickets sold out liao. So have faith in me. Its nt tat i dun wan to tell him abt ur presence but nw its really nt the right time. I promise u when its the right time i will break the news to him. Pandar...... I love u....