I just finish my team dinner. I was laughing very loudly on the jokes crack by my colleagues. But I realise my laugh feel so empty. The feel so lifeless. On my journey back home, I start to ask myself what I really need n want. Can I handle them all by myself? Am I ready to take on all these? Sad to say I do not have any answer. I do not know if I am ready a not. That's y I made no move. But I clearly know that if I continue like that, I will go crazy very soon.
I feel so tired of thinking. What should I do?

I believe in karma

How she hurt me I am sure there will be karma on her... I will stay alive to watch this karma... she will not be happy for long.

I can no longer be a happy person anymore

Ever since i found out that Mindy Lim from starhub is having an affair with my husband a year ago, my life totally changed. I can never be who i used to be. Happy is no longer found in me. I start to hate my life. My tears roll down non stop. I never expected her to betray me like that.
I will never forgive her. I believe there is Karma in this world. Today she betray me, one day she will get betray as well.

He is not there when I needed him most.....

Today is another boring Sunday..... Recently having a lot of stress at work... There are changes here n there, and I find dfficulties adapting it....I need him most but i know he is busy with his work.... And I feel so lost now, don't know what should i do now.... Sometimes I just feel like giving up....

Sometimes I just cannot understand....

I have been wondering how come there are people who like to backstab behind you.... I just cannot understand. I feel like I am wearing a mask to work everyday... N i am getting tired of all these.... Its a sad thing to know that people whom u used to be very close with backstab you.... Is working life really like that??? I wanna to leave that horrible workplace but I dunno where I can go to now... Last nite, I just cannot control myself anymore... I broke down n cried.... I simply cannot get over it... Everyday I am praying for a better day... But I wonder will my days get better????

Its so fake!!!!

I start to hate my working place.... Seems like everyone is so fake... I guess thats life working in a bank. I miss my previous work place colleagues.... I feel like I am only waiting for time to leave this stupid place. I tried very hard to find something but seems like not easy now. Another 3 more weeks I will be getting married... Although I have invited colleagues from the bank, I hope that they can don't come... Cos u can really sense that they do not really wish u happiness our of their heart.... Life really sucks nw... Hope I can get out of this shity place asap...

What a bad day....

Had a terrible day in the office... My colleague is on medical leave today... So I got double work load today. Somethings went wrong and pple commented how come my colleague is able to n I am not. But what she has been doing is not in compliance how can I follow her footsteps blindly??? Pple jux cannot understand..... Sometimes I am really tired of working.... But luckily I had a few pairs of listening ears.... Mr Ong knows abt what happen, he immed help me to see how he can help me.... So that the shit can be clr... Veri thankful.... Finally nw is day end... Hopefully my colleague come back for work tomorrow... If not I think I will break down.....