Terrible Saturday!!!!!

Vin is sick today. He is having fever. I am so worried abt him n at tat moment i feel like flying over to c him. But i was so disappointed when he told me tat he needs to go temple later to burn incense fr 4pm to 12am. Upon hearing my heart sank into the bottom. I would always find my best to spend time with him. I noe i should nt be disappointed n shld try to be understanding cos after all he is doin this for the seek of both of us. But whenever i noe tat he needs to go temple, i juz cant stop feeling disappointed. Cos when he is at temple he cant even call me nor sms me. So today will be a terrible sat for me. A lonely sat for me...... I dun even had the mood to do my revision nw. I guess this time i am goin to fail veri badly. how i wish the ocean is right in front of me nw. Den i can scream as loudly as i can. I miss Vin. Sometimes i felt tat he is so far apart fr me. So far away until i cant even reach him. Lost.......... Whenever i had tis feeling i would be really lost...... Dun even noe which direction i shld go to..... Vin wanna me to go over to his side tomorrow. But i juz cant find any reasons to get out of jail. I am so afraid tat my parents would be veri angry. But on the other hand i didnt wan to disappoint Vin. Y dun someone tell me wat i shld do. I am sinking in the deep ocean nw...... I wanna to c Vin cos i really miss him veri much but i cant find any vaild reasons to get out. I really dun noe wat i shld do. I had been thinking for the whole nite. My brains are bursting....... HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Things are really driving me CRAZY!!!!!