Fr One Hole to Another.......

I was on leave today. Suppose to do my revision for my exams. But haven done any single thing since the whole morning. Cos cant concentrate. Purposely woke up at 7.30am in the morning to give Vin a morning cal. Guess i am used to cal him to wake him up in the morning. When i wole up around 10 plus the first thing i did was to send him a sms. I really miss him a lot. He was busy with work today n cant cal me. Can onli give me a cal in the evening after tat he need to go temple again today. As usual its the fri session. He ask me a qs juz nw. Am i willing to suffer with him for more den 5yrs n even after suffering he still cant provide me with any gd life. at tat moment my mind became blank. cos i didnt noe how to ans him. but deep in my heart its was telling me tat i am willing to suffer with him for the rest of my life. cos i am totally stuck with him. I cant believe tat i am doin this. I muz have love him a lot. I came out of a messy hole n nw i am jumping into another messy hole again. My heart totally convinvce my brain tat i am doin the right thing this time. I choose this rd myself so i shall never regret no matters wat happen. I strongly believe one fine day when things get better for the both of uss, i will be the happiest gal in the world. Although he cant give me anything nw but i really dun mind. Cos i noe tat dreams n real life can never b the same. Its fate who bought me to him n bought him to me, so i should treasure it. Without him i wont be able to break free fr the shit life i am leading last time. I had been thru the worst so comparing the past n nw, nothing could b worst den the past. Sun will always be tehre to shine for me. If i choose to be happy for the rest of my life i will be happy. N Vin will try his best effort to make me feel happy. Pandar, i am prepared to take the path together with u. so nothing can stop me.