Nervous N Stress!!!!!!!!!!

Goin for exams at 2pm later on. Still trying my best to get all those notes stuff into my brain. But things dun seems to work the way i wan. I cant undersatnd most of the notes therefore its so difficult for me to stuff them into my brain. I guess its all bcos a lot of things had happened in my life for the past two mths tats y i cant concentrate on my studies well. I am so afraid of failing cos i noe tat once i fail i will be in deep financial shit. I juz sms Vin hoping tat he would wake up n console me. But he didnt. Although i am a bit dissappointed but i cant blame him. Cos i knew he has been veri tired n nt sleeping well. How i wish he is beside me nw. Got an arrow fr my dad last nite. Felt so sad. He pointed his fingers at me saying tat i had changed n i am the only one who noes if i had ever done anythign wrong. I noe its my fault for choosing to divorced at this moment thus causing him lose a lot of face. But i am juz an ordinary gal who wanna to find true love. When i was with my ex husband, no one noes how painful i am. No noe ever ask me how much i suffered. Cos i always painted a nice pic for them. Leading them to think tat i am happy n with no worries. They are my parents n yet they dun give me their fullest support. To me coming back hm is like coming back to jail. I am so stress up. Nw no classes, n i had already run out of reasons to go out with Vin. I am really veri stress. N Vin is pressing hard on me on goin out with him. I noe he miss me a lot. I miss him too. But i juz cant get myself out of the jail. Its so unfair to him but i dun have a choice. I really dun wan them to find out tat its bcos of him den i pick up my courage to divorced, cos i dun wan them to hate him. I noe my dad's character too well. He ever he found out abt this, he n me will be in dead meat. Cos he care too much on his face. To him face is more impt den his own daughter. I really dun noe wat i shld do nw......... Tell me, wat shld i do. I cant treat Vin so unfair but i cant take the risk too. The few wks bcos of stress, i kept on stuffing myself with food. N i am getting fatter. If the continues, I wili get back to my old size wan. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Stress Pls Leave Me Alone...........