wrong wrong wrong again.........

i am sick n no one cares..... i cant even bother to care too much too. i am havin fever today. n i dun even have the energy to tell anyone abt it... cos i am too tired n the sad thing is vin doesnt even sense tat i am nt feeling well. i am havin a bad depression nw. n i had no one to go to for help.... i noe i am goin crazy soon... i need to c a doc... i need someone to help me... but who can help.... can u imagine ur loved ones cant even be bother when u r sick.... i noe there is something wrong with me... but who can i sought help fr... wat ever i do is always wrong. today is sat... do u noe how long i wait for tis sat.... finally i am working morning shift n finally i can spend some time with vin... but disappointment came... he had to go temple again...... suddenly i felt a smashed in my heart.... can u imagine the sat u hope n long for is juz gone like tat.... who else can i blame.... i can onli shallow it.... wat else can i do.... a lot of things i dun even have a choice............. i cant blame anyone cos its i myself who choose tis path.... i can onli shallow it......... the worst thing is vin complained tat i am unreasonable n dun understand him.... so who is nt understanding n who is rite???????????? my d & d is comin guess wat i dun even had money to buy a new dress for tat....... i am reali tired............ i really dun noe how long i can take it................. n the worst thing is i cant tell anyone abt it.... i have to act as nothing had happened............. no one noes i pressure i am facing..... i dun even dare to come bk hm early.... i noe my parents hated me... i am trying my best to please them but wat ever i do is always nt rite.... i reali dun noe wat else can i do beside running away....... vin dun understand n i had never tot of tell him abt it... i noe he had his problems so i dun wan to add on problems to him... n yet he still think tat i am unreasonable n nt understanding euff.... can someone tell me wat shld i do????????????????