I am SO BORED.......=(

I am working nw. So bored.... I feel like i am rotting soon... Nw the sales is getting lesser n lesser... I need to find a way out but seems like looking for a new job is nt easy.... How i wish i can dun work..... Didn't sleep well for the past few weeks... Cos something is bothering in my mind. My divorce papers has already settled. But I need to surrender my flat which i have to do it myself. i still have some stuffs at that hse which right nw i dunno if i shld go collect it bk. At the same time i am veri afraid of goin bk there cos it hurts my heart everytime i went there. Even when i took a bus which pass by there, i can feel pain in my heart. i put in a lot of effort at that hse.... fr the moment i hold the keys i start to think how i shld reno my hse n wat shld i buy to decor my hse.... Since young i pinned hope to move out of my parents hse n had a hse of my own... tats y when i see the hse i felt hurt.... i dunno how to stop myself fr feeling hurt n oso dun dare to tell anyone how i felt... the onli way to calm my heart down is when i go church. onli at church i can find peace in my heart.... i hope one day the pain in my heart can heal... i dunno when tat day will be but hopefully it can come soon....